Update! I'm sleepy and tired after going to Ikea to buy stuffs of Decor Ministry for X-mas services and church. So i just post photo! I'm blissful to be back!
D2's outing set by LY HAPPY DAY EVER! 17 Dec 2007
1. Eat at BigO Wheelock Place. (This restaurant is recommended by Kris 'fries' and Sherlyn 'sherry' :D) 2. Walk around and talk. 3. Go back church to do BM. 4. HAPPILY do BMMMMMMMM (Broom fighting & Mop dancing) 5. Go home. = Happy Monday!
I'm just high and wanna post something interesting! EXCITING!
OH, CHRISTMAS SERVICES!
LY
3:04am
21.12.2007 (I love this colour)
10:58 AM
Apathy By Billy Zheng
When you ignored that Guy while having dinner When you got afraid of that girl's looks When you saw the sad looking dude on the left and just left him alone.
How many more people have to be indifferent and for their own sake of fun and laughter and fears condemn a soul to eternal suffering?
We sing making a difference in our lives and then jump with joy and slap high-fives We move on with the ones we know leaving the rest, the new in shadow.
Lucifer waits for one mistake and that guy who you saw while having dinner that 'ugly' girl that sad dude on the left, they're his
Devils waiting for your slip Making things very attractive to Convenietly forget. Convenietly 'not see.'
We sing making a difference in our lives and then jump with joy and slap high-fives We move on with the ones we know leaving the rest, the new in shadow.
Judgement day's come, He's here! We all sprout wings and before we know Here's heaven! Everybody's awesome and singing The praises of the Lord and King.
And upon that throne He sits The One and Only The Lion and The Lamb Jesus, God and Holy Spirit
But he looks down at us and we see nothing but tears flowing down His Awesome Face He looks and says: "Why didn't you care?"
We sing making a difference in our lives and then jump with joy and slap high-fives We move on with the ones we know leaving the rest, the new in shadow.
It's a poem inspired by Does anybody hear her by Casting Crowns.
Written because there was once a time where i felt out of church and i was just a shadow amongst a bunch of On Fire youths
Because there was once i almost left church because i just felt so lonely.
Written for those left behind alone because of insecurities, fear and faithlessness,
And those who could have come to the Father,
But crushed by the apathy and indifference of people who could have just
Given a smile, and a helping hand.
But didn't.
Written to remind people not to lose anyone anymore because of indifference.
9:21 AM
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Billy is speaking.
typing actually. hm.
Some sth that's on my mind.
God gave His hundred percent on the cross
His body and soul tormented and annhilated for our sins
And He gave us a chance to go to heaven,
Even pursue the high call and reign with Him.
It's really appaling to see how some people just ignore the truth and just play church
It's even worse to see people on fire, serving, but more worried with their physical things.
Willing to give only 50%. even 20%.
I'm just wondering, if Jesus were standing at the church door instead of the ushers, and He looked at every one of our hearts
How would He feel if a person came into the hse of God with such a ignorant attitude. or if he/she came in with a "oh, i have to do it because my leader says so, and i have to do it because i signed up so yeah." kind of mindset.
I wld really imagine that He'd just stop you and say, "come back when you are ready to serve and worship."
Like how Pst Lia told the first youths in our church.
I really see that Ministry is a place which is not a bed of roses.
It's tough. It's new. It's professional.
It's the mountian which we can trek, and grow on.
It's the place where we can give our all to Jesus and really express our love for Him thru our works.
There's no rest in the Christian walk as Pst Kevin Loo said.
One of the days in service i was really struck hard.
"Billy, are you giving your 100%? are you actually living for Jesus or just living a lie, serving God or serving your own intrests?"
I went into a lapse of time where i really saw myself from the outisde and i really could understand the areas of life which i needed to change in myself. And i really looked and looked and looked. And i really saw the flaws in my life
And God just showed me the rest- Thru pst Shearer's sermons in VBS about prefection,
Thru pst how's Prayer for us.
What i really realised and i want to share here is that God really wants us to be like Jesus. Giving all, or nothing. Giving something significant, or not even a bit. He wants us to have a heart of pure servitude, not even a partial heart. He wants people after the Heart of God, a one hundred percent. He wants us to see what's on the other side for us, the promised land.
I just really felt this inside spark. and i really knew that it was time to be serious. It was time to stand up and start living seriously.
I may be tired I may feel sick during this time I may be exhausted physically And drained mentally And conked out in energy
But who says that the walk of faith will have rest?
Who says ministry will have a break?
Who says walking with Him will have rest?
Who says Christianity is a bed of roses?
quoted frm dex's blog,
" Pastor Lia said something inspiring to the VBS worship team: "You will never feel rested. This is how it is going to feel like 9 out of 10 times you go out there."
this is not only true on worship team, but on any other ministry or even our own spiritual lives. there is no rest in pursuing Jesus. in fact, Jesus did not promise us an easy happy-go-lucky lifestyle, but a life of continual submission, surrender, and discipleship.
"
There is no rest, only a continuum of Worship, Fellowship, Ministry, Discipleship, Surrender and higher levels of the previous stated.
I remember i once thought seriosuly, "Are you going to live for Jesus? "
I'm going to live His dream. I'm going to see His vision for me. I'm going to love Him. I'm going to love His people. I'm going to love the lost. I'm going to hunger after Him. I'm going to crucify myself and allow Him to live in me. I'm going to answer the call I'm going to live the Christian life I'm going to stand up for what's right and see that the truth shall spread
and set many free.
Because He set me free He died for me He took all my sins to the grave Rose again to watch over me Guide me Help me Grow me.
Im going to live for Him.
I want to ask all of you reading this,
Are you all seriously living your life for Jesus?
I love you, D2.
9:26 PM
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Hi, all my dear friends! I love you guys!
Finally I have a little time to blog on this dear blog. It's our CG's blog so can't have spider webs like my blog. I have to update and make something interesting!
I LOVE HOGC! I can't stand staying for a long time away from church! I missed my church a lot when I was away from Singapore. Our church is the most happening and wonderful church ever in this world. I felt so loved by our people when I wasn't here. Everyday ushers talked to me on tag board of usher blog. They all missed me like crazy. My heart was so touched. Kris often sent message to me. Sherlyn nudged me on Msn. Billy chatted with me on Msn too. I missed them like mad.
Heart of God church is really my second HOME - my spiritual HOME ever.
On that day, 4th Dec, I landed off at 3 30pm. I went home from airport, quickly took a bath and headed to church immediately for ministry duty. I felt the joy! Church was decorated for Christmas nicely. I missed the decoration ministry's time to decor the church. People shouted out loud when they saw me: "YOU'RE BACK!", gave me a hug! That's the reason why I can't leave church forever. I love my church, people, Pastors, leaders, ministries and all the things related to 'HEART OF GOD' - the Heart of the Father! I received messages from Sherlyn, Billy and Joo Yu. I felt so warm and that they love me. Nowhere else can be like HOGC!
On the next day, that's VBS. I MET THEM! D2! Pray and worship on that day was my first time praising God after coming back. The presence of God really flowed in me. I really heard what God told me. He is AMAZING! He said that He missed me and was glad to have me back. I didn't have QT during holiday due to family. GOD really missed me and I MISSED HIS PRESENCE. Tears came out on my cheek. God inspired me to serve more and more in ministries.
VBS time was the time I had a lot of experiences. I have experienced working with Brother Sky in Cafe. I love Brother Sky who is firm and gorgeous. I really want to join SOUND MINISTRY to have more chances to work with Brother Sky and to learn more from him and to train my discipleship. I met Noni - my super 'chai' and funny chief usher. He immediately gave me usher schedule! Yup, I came back for usher too! I LOVE USHERS! I LOVE CAFE and I LOVE DECOR MINISTRY! I had some times to do decor. WAH, Joyce immediately asked me to buy flowers with her. It's really interesting. Seeing thousands of flowers makes me intoxicated... All of these experiences and VBS sermons brought me to another level.
It's really a need for me to settle my schedule for spending time with CG people. I LOVE D2! I saw you guys grow a lot in ministries. Jian Fan, Wye Keat are all in ushers. JooYu comes back for ushers and dance. Kris comes back for dance and worship team. Sherlyn grows in children church. WOW, you guys are AMAZING TOO!
Maybe there's something wrong. BUT OTHERS CAN, LY CAN'T! LY is still on fire! LY LOVES GOD! LY GROWS IN FAITH and NEVER LEAVE HOGC!
Now is the time for me to rise up and stand firmly against the sinful world. I'm ready to fight with the devil. AND MY FAITH is my WEAPON! MY FIRE has been IGNITED! I'm running with GOD!
Love, LY with a heart for ALL OF YOU!
9:00 AM
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
-billy
8:55 AM
Monday, December 3, 2007
hello people..wanted to post my zone camp experiences i posted on my blog here.
this is billy btw. yea.
Zone camp was amazing. Dom was preaching a sermon about others can, I cannot, choosing the long paths with God instead of personal glory and it just blew me completely away.
I'll post the rest of the zone camp details later but, revival night! it was crazy and i would even admit the turning point of my life.
I believe that God has been telling me that something amazing's gonna happen for these few months inside of me..and that my life is gonna be changed again. It happened! After Dom finished the sermon and he had the altar call i was just so inspired and spiritually touched and ached for the others can i cannot road i went up.
Although I didn't get prayed for, this is what happened:
As i was standing there worshipping God, a CGL came around our area and prayed really fast. I didn't even hear what she prayed and she didn't even pray for me, but i cld feel God's power radiating frm her and i just fell under God's power hard. It was like nothing i've ever felt before. I just fell flat on the ground and spoke in tongues for so long.
God started telling me about the times where i could have been something for him, take the others can but i cannot road, but i didn't and went on.
In sec 3, i could have given up the leadership role in publications to be a leader in church, but I DIDNT!
In dec 2006, i could have served in ministry and said NO to the rest of the enjoyment, but i decided to choose short term enjoyment!
I could have gone for VBS and grew better, but i decided to choose my publications.
I could have gone for SOW and be the worship leader i always wanted to be, but i decided to choose my publications.
In may, i could have seen the vision for 2007 but i didn't. I decided to choose my friends.
And God told me i could take the road if i wanted to again and he's giving me an opportunity to do so here and now!
I was standing at the crossroads of my life and on that day i felt so scared. So scared and so alone. Hw cld i give up a great future i've planned out and my dad and mum have paid for, sweated for, killed for?
I always wanted to Go mass comm, but somewhere inside i thought that maybe it was wrong? But it was my hope and dream, my idea and love and future.
I always wanted to be an electric guitarist and a rocker, and learn the techniques of Jimi Hendrix and John mayer and play it for God.
I always wanted to have a future in buisness with my dad, in the buisness sector and in 37 Degrees.
I have been struggling really hard with Sin and it seemed very tempting to go back into it after for fighting so long.
God told me to give up EVERYTHING.
So that day i decided..no compromise..i surrender all.
There it went, and i said:
God, I surrender
My Future education in mass comm My future in buisness with my dad and mum My electric guitar My future as the heir of 37 Degrees My daily sin and past sin i've committed for the past years My life from now onwards
I shall walk the narrow way with you
I shall surrender all to you
You know best, You are God, i'm not, and I love you, Worship you, and surrender all to you.
It was extremely difficult esp the first and last one because i really shaped my school life and my dad sorted out everything for me in the future..
I didn't want to move away from the dream i had set for myself..but it was then that God reminded me how many times i could have been something but i chose the other way..and i can try the others can, i cannot.
So i did it! It's gone out the window.
I had two very distinct visions..one being a worship leader in acoustic guitar, as well as a leader, and the second one being a Christian worker in my school, counselling, praying, evangelising and helping both students and teachers alike..
and God told me it's about giving up dreams is to live a greater predestined future.
Being a Christian Worker..
In ACSBR, since the 1980s much of the christian fire was lost..
and i really wanted to change it..and God sent me on a mission to relight it's fire during pastor joakim's seminar and gave me a vision of what i was doing two days ago.
and what i saw was something incredible and amazing. I was in the school church after chapel and i was sharing..my testimony and a bit of the word..and i was also praying very hard for a breakthrough in families for several boys in school uniform.
I really think God has brought me to acs for 10 years for a reason..
So many times Acs's name has been tarnished and called Christian Hypocrites..
But i'm sure that it can be broken and there really can be a generation of knights for God again..there was a great revival in the 1960's but it was lost..i'm out to start it again FOR GOD.
And God also told me that he wants me to be a worship leader in acoustic guitar..and i saw it happen again. A vision..a long stage with alot of singers..and an image of me leading worship like omega.
And God showed me a last vision
There were roads all over the place
there were people on those roads walking, highways, roads, alleys, and suddenly a straight, small narrow road in front of me illuminates. It's a straight road and simple, rough, going through the desert in a long way. and God said to me..
Walk the narrow way with me, Son.
And there i just recommitted everything to Jesus and decided to do it, and i surrendered my future, as hard as it was, to him.
And it was just an amazing load off my back.
And woah..it was so powerful i started crying and speaking in tongues over and over..and i didnt stop until service ended.
That day i promised and promised God, Never again will i stray away
I may have gone here and there
Played church
Been not serious
Slipped many times
BUT MY RESOLVE HAS NEVER BEEN STRONGER
AND I WILL SURRENDER ALL TO YOU!
simply amazing.
I rise with you in the wake of the morning And I walk with you in the cool of the night And every single day I'm devoted to your ways, Only yours, Only yours.
And I surrender all to you And I surrender all to you And I surrender all to you And I surrender all to you
I rise with you in the wake of the morning I walk with you in the cool of the night And every single day I'm devoted to your ways, Only yours, Only yours.
And I surrender all to you And I surrender all to you And I surrender all to you And I surrender all to you
When I'm weak You are Strong You're my feet when i cant move on You are the light in the dark You are the whisper inside my heart
I'm all for you I'm all for you I'm all for you I'm all for you
October 2007 memoirs