Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Billy is speaking.
typing actually. hm.
Some sth that's on my mind.
God gave His hundred percent on the cross
His body and soul tormented and annhilated for our sins
And He gave us a chance to go to heaven,
Even pursue the high call and reign with Him.
It's really appaling to see how some people just ignore the truth and just play church
It's even worse to see people on fire, serving, but more worried with their physical things.
Willing to give only 50%. even 20%.
I'm just wondering, if Jesus were standing at the church door instead of the ushers, and He looked at every one of our hearts
How would He feel if a person came into the hse of God with such a ignorant attitude. or if he/she came in with a "oh, i have to do it because my leader says so, and i have to do it because i signed up so yeah." kind of mindset.
I wld really imagine that He'd just stop you and say, "come back when you are ready to serve and worship."Like how Pst Lia told the first youths in our church.
I really see that Ministry is a place which is not a bed of roses.
It's tough. It's new. It's professional.
It's the mountian which we can trek, and grow on.
It's the place where we can give our all to Jesus and really express our love for Him thru our works.
There's no rest in the Christian walk as Pst Kevin Loo said.
One of the days in service i was really struck hard.
"Billy, are you giving your 100%? are you actually living for Jesus or just living a lie, serving God or serving your own intrests?"I went into a lapse of time where i really saw myself from the outisde and i really could understand the areas of life which i needed to change in myself. And i really looked and looked and looked. And i really saw the flaws in my life
And God just showed me the rest- Thru pst Shearer's sermons in VBS about prefection,
Thru pst how's Prayer for us.
What i really realised and i want to share here is that God really wants us to be like Jesus. Giving all, or nothing. Giving something significant, or not even a bit. He wants us to have a heart of pure servitude, not even a partial heart. He wants people after the Heart of God, a one hundred percent. He wants us to see what's on the other side for us, the promised land.
I just really felt this inside spark. and i really knew that it was time to be serious. It was time to stand up and start living seriously.
I may be tired
I may feel sick during this time
I may be exhausted physically
And drained mentally
And conked out in energy
But who says that the walk of faith will have rest?
Who says ministry will have a break?
Who says walking with Him will have rest?
Who says Christianity is a bed of roses?
quoted frm dex's blog,
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Pastor Lia said something inspiring to the VBS worship team:
"You will never feel rested. This is how it is going to feel like 9 out of 10 times you go out there."
this is not only true on worship team, but on any other ministry or even our own spiritual lives. there is no rest in pursuing Jesus. in fact, Jesus did not promise us an easy happy-go-lucky lifestyle, but a life of continual submission, surrender, and discipleship."
There is no rest, only a continuum of Worship, Fellowship, Ministry, Discipleship, Surrender and higher levels of the previous stated.
I remember i once thought seriosuly,
"Are you going to live for Jesus? "
I'm going to live His dream.
I'm going to see His vision for me.
I'm going to love Him.
I'm going to love His people.
I'm going to love the lost.
I'm going to hunger after Him.
I'm going to crucify myself
and allow Him to live in me.
I'm going to answer the call
I'm going to live the Christian life
I'm going to stand up for what's right
and see that the truth shall spread
and set many free.
Because He set me free
He died for me
He took all my sins to the grave
Rose again to watch over me
Guide me
Help me
Grow me.
Im going to live for Him.
I want to ask all of you reading this,
Are you all seriously living your life for Jesus?
I love you, D2.
9:26 PM
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